It's a boy!

Okay--I just realized I hadn't posted this on my blog yet, so now you know if you haven't heard--we are having another boy!  I've struggled a bit with the idea of having another boy, mostly because of the fear of never having a girl.  I grew up with all sisters and S. grew up with all brothers, so I'm really familiar with families that are one extreme or the other--full of boys or full of girls.  S. and I used to joke about this before we had kids--I always said we would have all girls, he would say all boys--as you can see, I'm been proved wrong. 
When anyone asked what I wanted with this pregnancy, I would always say a girl, but then add that a boy would be great too, because they would make a perfect playmate for N. and be able to wear all the same clothes.  I tried to convince myself that I would be happy with a boy to everyone and I thought I had myself convinced, until the day of the sonogram.  As we're walking to the car, after we had found out, I started bawling.  I was so upset and disappointed.  I went into the sonogram really thinking it was a girl--I really don't know why.  I cried for a good hour and a half, until there were no more tears left in me.  I then spent the afternoon, while N. was napping, going through all his old baby clothes and looking at baby boy bedding and fabrics online, until honestly I felt better about having another boy.  I was really surprised at how by the end of the day, I was at peace with having a boy.  I hadn't expected to get over it that quickly.  Now, I won't lie, I still in my heart of hearts want a girl and am still attracted to little girls clothes and anything pink, but I'm excited to be having a healthy, little boy.  I love my little N., and I know that I'll love this little guy too--if only I could pick out a name:)